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Mohabbat-Unko-Ras-Nahi-Hoti-Hai.


Again

I felt as if I couldn't breathe
when I realized it has been
more than a year without you...
That I'll turn 18 without you...
That I'll go to college without you.
No longer are we inseparable,
for there are more miles
and light years between us
than I ever imagined possible.
Everything goes on without you.
Without me.
The leaves change colour,
the temperature drops,
the winter chill begins to set in.
All creation quietly screams to move on,
let go.
But what if I can't?
What will happen to me?
Will I never be open to love again?
Will I continue to push people away
until they finally give up fighting for me?
I wish you were here,
even if I can't have you for my own.
Just knowing you were alive...
How do I move on from what we had?
I still feel it, feel you.
Ach, you haunt me.
My every waking moment,
you hover in the shadows of my mind.
In the night, I feel you...
just out of my reach.

 

 

 

 

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